Grief forgets to groan and love to weep.

(Syark best buddy! Sent me off to Thailand!)


(Hate planes, to the max!)










More at Facebook :)

Graze on my lips

That's my fav boy, po!
Guess I'm used to village life alrd, was sick on the first day when I came back to Singpore. Withdrawal syndrome?

Oh anyway, please appreciate your toilet people.

Somehow, we learn who we really are and then live with that decision.

Friday the 13th, but am quite lucky today.

Guess what. The degree of my eyes dropped 50 degrees!
WHOOLA. I think carrot juice did a great help.

One of the keys to happiness is bad memory #2

2nd chemistry lesson.

" Zixin, you better not run away from lesson okay "

I didn't intend to do that teacherrrrrrr.
Does my hairstyle make me look so bad!?

To: someone who said goodbye suddenly

Going off to Thailand next week!!

Whine less, breathe more

Did you know that you can treat painful mouth ulcers using an apple? First, peel off the apple's skin. You can then rub the apple slices a couple times on your sores. If your sore is on your tongue, you can let the apple sit on your tongue for a couple minutes. You should do this about 5 times a day.

Avoid eating spicy and sour foods to help speed up the healing process of your mouth ulcers. Spicy and sour foods can actually make your ulcers more inflamed and prolong the healing process. Avoid foods high in sugar and citrus fruits.

Source: http://www.ehow.com/

Few days ago Jillynn suggested that I should eat some oranges to have a speedy recovery. What shit! Haha. Tsk. Should have used apple instead of salt. Who says salt make wound heals faster?
But still, thank God for this wonderful website.

One of the keys to happiness is a bad memory.

Holiday's first chemistry lesson, my teacher told me,

" Actually, Zixin, you're not dumb. "

In the first place, I didn't say I was! But after a second thought, I think my new hairstyle made me look dumb. GRRRRRR GROW HAIR GROWWW!

I've always regret after a haircut. ALWAYS.

Halloween 2009

Shermaine punched me in my face that day!
Great day spend still :)

Write something, even if it's just a suicide note.

Byeeeeeeeee

You whispered into my ears (but I can't hear it)

Yes! Tomorrow Friday! Love Fridays! :)
School is like honeymoon now.

Crazy days and screwed up nights!

Life's so great for me now.
The moment I changed your name from 'Idiot' to.. your name, I know You're forgiven by me the great. That is so ironic because You've done nothing except making breaking heart look so easy.
But nevermind, I've got a big heart :)Probably this would be the last post bout you haha. Let it go. I had. You should have.

Every sweet has its sour.

Interclass games. Kiss that! :)

More at Fb.

I fell off my pink cloud with a thud.

I thought Shermaine would be happy today, because the sky is blue!
But she cried! (awwww!)

'It's okay' is a cosmic truth.

The number in my dream was not in use! HAHA WHAT A GREAT RELIEF! :) :)
Busy life busy life.

A lifetime of happiness? No man could bear it.

MY ASS HURTS SO MUCH.

Cycled with Jillynn and Jintian ard everywhere. Looks like Woodlands isn't SO big after all! Got hell lot of things I wanna to do over the holidays before I go to Thailand from 16-21 in Nov.

Plaster thick, some will stick.

Holy shit, I'm falling sick.
Holy shit, I didn't touch books for the whole day.


My previous dream is freaking me out.
I don't dare to dream.. and sleep

Sometimes one creates a dynamic impression by saying something, and sometimes one creates as significant an impression by remaining silent.

Have you ever dreamt of someone you've never met before, accidentally remembered a telephone number that appear in your dream?

Holy shit. This thing has been bothering me since last night. My mom dreamt that I've a boyfriend and I dreamt that I've a boyfriend too. Grr.

I wonder whether if it's the same guy. My mom says he has small eyes! #$%@!

My sister says if you dreamt of someone you don't know in your dream, it might be because some male ghost took a fancy on you and is trying to woo you in your dream!! And if you accept him, you'll die in your sleep. zzz.


K nvm. Dream don't happen in reality. Maybe because nowadays reality is hell for me therefore God grant me a sweet dream last night, hahah yeaaaaa

Kiss your life. Accept it, just as it is.

" If you find yourself compulsively checking your ex's MySpace, Facebook, or any other social networking profile, help yourself out and use the Firefox extension, block site, which allows you to block the URL to that profile. Sometimes it also helps to take them off your 'Friends' list, or 'de-friend' them, at least for a while. Even if things ended on a clean slate, it can be too painful to see what the other person is up to. "


HAHA I LAUGH MY ASS OFF MAN.
Got a need to go to that certain extent?

There is something in October sets the gypsy blood astir.

I had so much fun in September till I forgot September ended.

May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays.

Revising for the whole year's work is boring!!
KKK TWO WEEKS MORE. TIME FLIES ZIXIN. IT FLIES.

Our memories are the only paradise from which we can never be expelled.

"........ The promotion criteria to Sec 4 express is pretty straight forward isn't it? Just 3 subjects and English. For those who can't be promoted, I'm sad to say that there must be something very wrong. If you think maths isn't important because you're strong in Art/DnT and you decided to continue to fail it because it doesn't even matter whether you're passing it 'cause you're going some courses in poly, You're so wrong. Yeah. You can get some courses in poly even if you fail maths. But it won't be a good course. O level won't determine your life, but it will definately determine around 10 years of your life. Actually you're learning most of the things in sec 3 do you know that? Sec 4 we got to finish the whole syllabus by March. You won't have time to figure out what you don't know in the past 3 years of your life. Sec 1 and Sec 2 are just basic foundation. Sec 3 is the most important part. I know some of you hadn't been focusing very well nowadays. Let me tell you, spend quality time on doing something, without thinking of anything else, focus. Do not spend 1 hour doing your work and in that 1 hour you used 45 minutes to think about your boyfriend. It won't help much. Secondary 4 will be so much harder than this. If you think this is stressful, you got to be prepared.. "

Oh yeah. Some motivating speech by my teacher early in the morning. I think sleeping is a waste of time all of a sudden..
Time flies. will be my end of year next week. I don't know why it feels like I'm taking O lvl?


Oh hello Karim!! :)

I'll carelessly cut you, and laugh when you're bleeding.

Her birthday cake's soooooo cool! She got the same birth date as Google anyway. And the same birth date as my grandmother!

Lucky girl! Hope she gets nothing except the most amazing things life can ever give.

You lift me up, leave me down.

I wish I could scream this out loud, and mean it.

I would love September, but that only applies when We're in it.

(Via Mickeyalice)



I'm kind of sad today. I'll definately fail my chinese oral.

Come make me laugh, come make me cry. Just make me feel alive.

Our notice board like funny. Nothing but black and yellow.
S and J and Me looked kind of alike again! :D




church > ben's grandma's house > Pasir ris park > roti prata supper > home

It was very very x100000^100 fun I swear. Really enough to forget those stuffs I had.
Yeah whatever. I had fun today. so much.


Exams coming!!

In another faction of my mind.

Hi. I think I fainted due to the sight of you today.

Be not solitary.

Have to do things I don't like nowadays...
Endured and did those shit. In the end I dreamt of me hurling vulgarities at that particular person who made me do those things I hate. Uh. I realise I do actually vent angers in my dream.

People say if you sleep angrily, you will dream of your anger and you wake up angrily.
Wow. Seem to be true.


So don't cry to sleep idiots. Tho there's a saying - sleep your sorrow away, but think clever. If you cry to sleep, eventually you'll wake up sadly the next day. Pointless right. Might as well don't sleep and cry till dawn breaks.

You dismantle Me

Hey, does a certain song reminds you of someone?



I do.

Enough of the EMO crap sometimes I just need to get my feelings out.

Occasionally I wished I could walk through a picture window and have the sharp, broken shards slash me to ribbons so I would finally look like I felt.

I bet you changed your wardrobe since we met.

Fb games addictive. Stacks of homeworks waiting for me.
Can't don't give a shit because exams is drawing nearer.

They didn't want it good, they wanted it Wednesday.

It's my sister's 18th birthday today! wow.
I guess I'm the last one to wish her.
You know.. save the best for the last *wink*
I think my family has a certain habit..


We don't celebrate birthday with cakes.
just... money. I'm serious. I'm not trying to flaunt around that I'm so fucking rich like other bloggers. but anyway thats why I don't really like cakes. haha! 'xept for Mango cakes of course. but whatever it is, what makes us happy is what that really matters!
isn't it?

:)

Please don't walk away and tell me you'll stay. Stay.

Installation on last Saturday.
Probably the best installation in the world.
More at Fb!

Went Marche for lunch @ Vivo with family yesterday. Fabulous.
I love the mushroom and Rosti.


Teacher's day celebration today. Boring. Same as every year.
Secondary school students use results as teacher's day present. Unlike primary school, prepare the best gift for teacher and held a mini celebration in classroom(HAHA THATS WHAT I DID IN PRIMARY SCHOOL OMG. I think I spent quite alot of money on tibits and useless stuffs baaaa)I thought of that last night so did't even bother to prepare any gifts haha. Kinda true yes? :)

Went Shermaine's crib to study. Ended up sleeping and drooling on my worksheet -__-

The words sloped dangerously down.

wtf blogger can kiss my ass.
can't post pictures again. layout go haywire again.
noob cake.


out with ben tomorrow and dinner with family.
gonna be a long day! looking foward. sheeesh.


(My life restarted 5 months ago. you knew it don't you.) bye.

I haven't meet anyone else like you. (you know what I mean)

The little glances;
The strained conversations;
The turned heads.



On a happier note, Installation tomorrow! :)

Life has no meaning the moment you lose the illusion of being eternal.

Thanks Ben for the Transformer shirt!
makes me a happy girl all over again~
Couldn't really remember what I've done this week.
ahha goodbye.

Does the pain weight out the pride?

I got a cut at the end of my lips!
I guess someone just cut me a smile. Maybe i smile too much.
ok whatever

All the hours wound you, the last one kills

I guess I'm alright :)

and I'm rather glad that I'm not a geog student =D

I try to teach my heart not to want things it can't have

We used telephone because we hated being close together and we're scared of being alone.


Me being Me, I'm sick again.

Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated.

Everyone's is moving to Onsugar now.
I think the name is kind of weird huh.
If I were to choose my account name as iamshitting
therefore my website would be i-am-shitting.onsugar.com.

?!

Blogger has been quite a disappointment too no?
I can't post any pictures like last time. got to go Photobucket
It's a chore to me. Well yea..

I slept the whole day because school starts tomorrow.

Did the word 'think' just escape your lips?

Crazy! played Wii for a few hours and next badminton.
Arm's sore. I think I've develop more muscles *wink.

By that sin fell the angels.

I re-read my diary and I actually forgot so many things that happened in my life. I only know my birthday this year's and last year suck 2 de max. Yeah FML.

Started my August this way. Great.
Got a feeling that I'ld end it like how I've accidentally started it.

Forbidden entry

Life of a weird insomniac.

Slept through thursday. Wasn’t really asleep, just meditating on unconsciousness.
Nothing to do anyway.

Who's there?

Titanicsmile

Its okay to talk to yourself (just don't interupt)

Day #4 passed like that.
IT'S DAY 4 PEOPLE. IT DOES MAKE A DIFFERENCE. 2 days.
whoohoo. 3 more days and I'm a freewoman. this sentence makes me sound like i'm from girls' home. whatever.

Watch The Hangover today.
(and I love the nuts of the chinese guy. ^^V)
I'm a contradictor. so.. up to you to believe or not. HA.

What difference is there between us, save a restless dream that follows my soul but fears to come near you?

Day #3

I'm gonnna blog before drugs knocks me out!
My condition worsen! :( argh. whyyyyyyyyyy God knows.
Really unbearable. got the feeling to go out and all those things.. ass.
Everyone's in sch whereas me, being me(weak immune system and got the word 'stubborn' flowing along with my blood) is stuck at home, ALONE. ALONE.
Can't do anything much. only watch movies. AND YEA. SPEAKING OF MOVIE, I watched Orphan (alone)!!
Quite an achievement, really. it's quite gross. hammering head and break necks. pfft.


alright I'm going to crash now.
I got a really wierd dream last night.

There are many things that we would throw away if we were not afraid that others might pick them up.

I think I'm quite healed! but blahhhh why am I quarantined D:
but well, giving school a week's miss. will have alot to catch up 2 weeks later.
Power. Can survive 2 days without going out. 5 more days to go!

And if you were to say 'come with me', even now I might go.

H1N1 positive person.
A week's quarantine.

Fever come and go, throat infection, flu, cough like mad.


1 week mc = shit

Curiousity has its own reason for existing.

There you go. I got an elastic face, jealous much? :)

Don't you know my tears will burn the pillow, set this place on fire cause I'm tired of your lies

Rotaract Installation till evening.

And spent my rest of the day with Shermaine!

Keep your head above water,

"I was traumatized yesterday thats why I went to watch Harry Potter to calm myself."

Pretty no link right? PRECISELY.
It's almost like what You've told everybody. You're a contradictory aren't you. I suppose, yes.
You don't need your dignity, I NEED. AND I WANT.
GRR WHY BOYS ARE LIKE THAT! SO BITCH.
Enough is never quite enough yeah? GRRR

I'm so angry, I'm soooo soooo angry! :(
I just cut my face, again. i hate my fingernails.

3 papers straight in a day almost killed me.
The flea-market-excitement as well as the weekend mood has died down. Blowing my money away on things I forgot. Cabbing to school nowadays. must stop this!

Hate chinese project Hate. waste time project. but my language is lousy enough. need project marks so SUCK THUMB!

I kind of like Blogger's 'new' layout.

It is not necessary to deny another's reality in order to affirm your own.

Harry potter today. Am prepared for this saturday's party :)

Optimism is denial, so face the facts and move on

Caught The haunting in Connecticut with Shermaine. Based on true story anyway. Pretty horrifying. Scream and weep throughout the movie. Got to be brave!

Next aim: Shutter Island.

Flea market on Sat! :D

With your bitter, twisted lies, but still, like dust, I'll rise.

I look like a school girl ghost in that picture. haha.

Staying back after school these days. School work wearing me out. Sleeping late at night. Rushing for school unwillingly every morning. Can't eat nowadays. More headaches. More stress.
Can't do anything much.
Life goes on. =D

Damn. tomorrow report taking day. saturday movie marathon and sunday meeting again i suppose. next sunday Botanic garden trip hehheh. can't wait.

Today is..

Diary burning day.

Reflex which exposed on my own prejudices.

My phone... is as quiet as me.

I am as quiet as my phone too.

Any man can make mistakes, but only an idiot persists in his error

People are ridiculous only when they try or seem to be that which they are not. Yes. Like you. Haha
To me, this is a catastrophic success. but nevermind. Because I realised I'm multi-talented.
I can talk and piss you off at the same time.

Drink mango juice to make yourself chilled after reading this kkk


>:3

No weight until you gave false lust & words like 'lost'.

I'm choked by my own air.
Recaptures.
but this time was more absolute, heartfelt.
I could smell that perfume tout de suite.


then it dissipate,
I sniff hard.
no more..



Disappear.. every littlest thing of You.
Fetching painkillers.