Because i have to accept that fact

Oh well, some people thinks complicatedly. Who cares? Not me.
It's always good to tell someone how you're feeling, right?
Be it sad, happy, love, angry, disappointed, etc.

Right? Right? Right?

We spend too much time on waiting

Okay. after this post I'll be going to read Midnight Sun :)

Even hero bleeds

Yesterday - 11-12-08.

Went to phoebe's party.





Don't ask me why Phoebe blowjob :( I also don't know.


















Happy birthday once again Phoebe :)

Minus you i'm better off,

I had a super kinky dream that came true today, I mean, I didn't mean it. it just happened so fluky that I don't know how to react

Self wakings

I don't need anybody's concerns. expecially yours. it's so fake. don't you realise it?
I don't really reply whatever you've said, to me, and trying to let my mind know you're Real.
You're too fake to be true.
get it right. you're never real to me. perhaps last time, yes. Now-never.

bye.

Am i suppose to look back?

We don't even know the reason why we left each other.

It was never going to end, was it?

Jillynn is one responsible pig :) , in the morning she send me a message, saying that she's leaving Singapore already, then say byebye
then she tag in my tagboard says she reach Bangkok already, :D
see! thats why i love her so damn muchzxzxzzx

Totally thanks to you, I hate you so much now.
people says first cut always hurts but this isn't the first time so why does it hurt so badly?
Argh i really don't wanna think so much for now, at least for now, only. I miss those Oxygen i breathe in happily, not like now, ha.

Down the cobblestone

I just can't believe I will actually scold you last night, ironically, I'm glad that I've said whatever I want to.



goodbye.

Give me a break,

you better give

No matter what you'll never see me cry

Pictures at Interact meeting:

Farizmi! =D HAHA MY PRECIOUS!

Looking up at the sky, I felt so perfect-not healed.
but as if there had never been a wound in the first place..

Abstruse matters

I think..

No point..

blogging my feelings out, cause' it wont make me feel better.
telling my problems to my friends, cause' it won't make me feel better either
thinking things that it's over. No, I mean, things that have not even started. because I'll just get myself stuck there and not moving on.
telling myself things will get better definately when it is not going to be.
staying gay, when I'm just so not gay inside.
acting strong. when I Am Not.

I just need a solution. to make my life better.

Let go what i have tonight

Looking at our past conversation just now..
What I'm gonna do? I don't know why, I still do. Maybe this is just temporary, yeah maybe.

Pain ease. Drift to sleep

Basically I did absolutely nothing today except hugging my Gingy cookay all day long..
:(

When you say it's love, I say it's lie.

I've promised too many people I'll be happy.

Tell me and I'll forget.

I don't know whats the reason for you to hurt me repeatedly, continuosly, happily.
Even though you aplogised, but I guess that doesn't helped much.

Check it out whats fake in me

ohmygodzx. I think my fringe is hotzxzxzx.
But I wanna cut it more straight, because obviously it isn't straight...
Anyway. I didnt cut bangs, i cut half bangs then slant for another half.

If only you can give me what i want

You will never know how i feel.

Awaiting

Sometimes straight forward answer hurts. haha!
I feel so cheated, toyed, hurt and pushed around.
I dont blame her for being so inquisitive though, (:

I've cut my own fringe, anyway.

Your eyes, telling me lies

You cant save a wilted rose, let alone, a broken heart.

Amatory

OH YAH OH MY GOD I ACTUALLY FORGOT THIS

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG SISTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
Thanks for all the advices you've given me down my 14 years of road.
Everytime we always drink or eat together then talk alot of 人生大道理 right? hee.
I've learn alot from you, espicially your perserverance.
I will still be learning from you! so you've better teach me something more than the things that only 21 years old people will know!!! *winks
YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU SO I DON'T HAVE TO SAY SO MUCH ON THIS. HAHA
Sorry for not giving you a kiss on your cheek when you asked me to, HAHA.
it was too sudden! I was like so shock.

" QUICK. GIVE ME A PECK ON MY CHEEKS!!!! I'M 21 NOWWWWWWWW "

hahhaa, i can give you if you ask me after reading this post.
( i know you always read my daily post lor, don't fake. )



Okay lah, 1 more hour plus for you to get high and torture me, only!