Walking into walls

I guess my blog is getting mundane...

I woke up at 4am hehhehh, to arouse someone up for his soccer match ^^
so egotistical now, muahahah.

Kay so this morning I didn't get to eat my favourite LJS breakfast...
had sandwich instead. *sighs*
should have charge to Causeway LJS and gobble the breakfast down.
don't feel the same without LJS breakfast in the morning..

New formation for today. I'm betwixt and between whether I could be the Libro because my reaction is just soooooooooo slow and I couldn't grin and bear the pain done on my arms.
Hongye's spikes sucks. bonk onto my face directly.

After everything, I hopes she understands too

Longjohn breakfast is just soooooooooooo fantastic!! (L)
I just hate the orange juice. taste too sour

school's reopening in about 4 days time!
why everyone is rushing their homeworks?
I have not use my hand to write for around 2 months and I don't think I know how to hold a pen to write anymore. aw man.

Tied in memories.

I don't feel a bit precipitousness, because I get the idea of my willfulness.
When I say I won't forgive you. actually it just means that I need more time to really get myself exculpate you. period.
after everything it just means you don't get the hang of me well enough.
Right now. Shaking hands seems to be the simplest thing happening to me

Because some cut heal with another scar.

MERRY CHRISTMAS. once again

Because i have to accept that fact

Oh well, some people thinks complicatedly. Who cares? Not me.
It's always good to tell someone how you're feeling, right?
Be it sad, happy, love, angry, disappointed, etc.

Right? Right? Right?

We spend too much time on waiting

Okay. after this post I'll be going to read Midnight Sun :)

Even hero bleeds

Yesterday - 11-12-08.

Went to phoebe's party.





Don't ask me why Phoebe blowjob :( I also don't know.


















Happy birthday once again Phoebe :)

Minus you i'm better off,

I had a super kinky dream that came true today, I mean, I didn't mean it. it just happened so fluky that I don't know how to react

Self wakings

I don't need anybody's concerns. expecially yours. it's so fake. don't you realise it?
I don't really reply whatever you've said, to me, and trying to let my mind know you're Real.
You're too fake to be true.
get it right. you're never real to me. perhaps last time, yes. Now-never.

bye.

Am i suppose to look back?

We don't even know the reason why we left each other.

It was never going to end, was it?

Jillynn is one responsible pig :) , in the morning she send me a message, saying that she's leaving Singapore already, then say byebye
then she tag in my tagboard says she reach Bangkok already, :D
see! thats why i love her so damn muchzxzxzzx

Totally thanks to you, I hate you so much now.
people says first cut always hurts but this isn't the first time so why does it hurt so badly?
Argh i really don't wanna think so much for now, at least for now, only. I miss those Oxygen i breathe in happily, not like now, ha.

Down the cobblestone

I just can't believe I will actually scold you last night, ironically, I'm glad that I've said whatever I want to.



goodbye.

Give me a break,

you better give

No matter what you'll never see me cry

Pictures at Interact meeting:

Farizmi! =D HAHA MY PRECIOUS!

Looking up at the sky, I felt so perfect-not healed.
but as if there had never been a wound in the first place..

Abstruse matters

I think..

No point..

blogging my feelings out, cause' it wont make me feel better.
telling my problems to my friends, cause' it won't make me feel better either
thinking things that it's over. No, I mean, things that have not even started. because I'll just get myself stuck there and not moving on.
telling myself things will get better definately when it is not going to be.
staying gay, when I'm just so not gay inside.
acting strong. when I Am Not.

I just need a solution. to make my life better.

Let go what i have tonight

Looking at our past conversation just now..
What I'm gonna do? I don't know why, I still do. Maybe this is just temporary, yeah maybe.

Pain ease. Drift to sleep

Basically I did absolutely nothing today except hugging my Gingy cookay all day long..
:(

When you say it's love, I say it's lie.

I've promised too many people I'll be happy.

Tell me and I'll forget.

I don't know whats the reason for you to hurt me repeatedly, continuosly, happily.
Even though you aplogised, but I guess that doesn't helped much.

Check it out whats fake in me

ohmygodzx. I think my fringe is hotzxzxzx.
But I wanna cut it more straight, because obviously it isn't straight...
Anyway. I didnt cut bangs, i cut half bangs then slant for another half.

If only you can give me what i want

You will never know how i feel.

Awaiting

Sometimes straight forward answer hurts. haha!
I feel so cheated, toyed, hurt and pushed around.
I dont blame her for being so inquisitive though, (:

I've cut my own fringe, anyway.

Your eyes, telling me lies

You cant save a wilted rose, let alone, a broken heart.

Amatory

OH YAH OH MY GOD I ACTUALLY FORGOT THIS

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG SISTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
Thanks for all the advices you've given me down my 14 years of road.
Everytime we always drink or eat together then talk alot of 人生大道理 right? hee.
I've learn alot from you, espicially your perserverance.
I will still be learning from you! so you've better teach me something more than the things that only 21 years old people will know!!! *winks
YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU SO I DON'T HAVE TO SAY SO MUCH ON THIS. HAHA
Sorry for not giving you a kiss on your cheek when you asked me to, HAHA.
it was too sudden! I was like so shock.

" QUICK. GIVE ME A PECK ON MY CHEEKS!!!! I'M 21 NOWWWWWWWW "

hahhaa, i can give you if you ask me after reading this post.
( i know you always read my daily post lor, don't fake. )



Okay lah, 1 more hour plus for you to get high and torture me, only!

Mine full of pain

To forget the past, to adapt the present.

I have to accept the fact that we weren't anything
even though your shoulders will still be there when I need any...

The best thing about me is you.

3E4(Integrity) .

English, Mother Tongue, Emaths, Amaths, Combine Science(Chem,Phy), Combine Humanities(SS,Hist), POA.


I don't know why I can't smile even though all my first choiced subject are given to me, my good friends, jokers in class are still in the same class as me, I don't have to appeal for anything, etc.
I keep asking myself why but I can't give myself a good answer.
I hope for a better year.

Disappearing

In this few months, it's nothing but just lies.
I thought I've learn something from the past, but I guess learning never stops.
Sorry can't make me feel better, it's just a word. A word that I wouldn't wanna hear the most.
Running away using the words, I don't know.

If i were to ask you the same question next time, even if you say yes, even if you sounds more sincere, even if it sounds true, even if it sounds touching,
I will not fall for it anymore. those ain't absolute truth.
Maybe they are.. but tell me how to be convinced.

Deep inside, i already knew

guess what,
I think, there's nothing I can do except to get used to it, and give you time.
but how? I hate waiting.

I asked myself " why is my pillow wet? " when i woke up.

silly.

Bringdown

I hate today, like really alot alot alot x infinity
When I say hate, doesn't mean I'm angry ok. fuck lah, i'm like always disappointed days after days.

nevermind. you won't understand..
Better tomorrow? I hope so.

Because of you

HISTORY IS OKAY. VERY OKAY. just that i don't have enough time.
But i managed to finish all the questions, but I don't have enough time.
Okay. ignore the above sentence

Went 883 with Bitches and lunched with them, they forced me to eat something i don't like..
That seafood thinggy.. found in Laksa. I almost.. nevermind.
YOU KNOW HOW GROSS IT IS. I STILL TASTE THE BLOOD.
THEY GO BLUFF ME THAT IT'S COOKED. AFTER I EAT THEY TOLD ME IT'S JUST
half cooked. To me, Half cook = half raw. WHICH MEANS.
I ate that seafood thinggy half rawwwwww.
*vomits

After that, went to fetch my little cousin home, while my bitches went playing voleyball.
I wanted to play, BUT nevermind..

When i saw my cousin, she was giving me this :'( face.
No reason for her to have watery eyes and sad face because I reached there early okay.
I asked her what happened. She told me her friend used waterbottle and hit her.
I WENT LAUGHING. HAHAHAHA. then she really cry -__-
well. my bad.

me: haiyo. which friend?
her: what you going to do.
me: stuff her into toilet bowl and flush ok. dont cry.
her: HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA

she's weird sometimes, I don't think stuffing that girl into the toilet bowl and flush considered violent.
P/S : I'm gentle >;D

Yeap. so dragged her home because she keep laughing and almost got bang by car -.-


WHAT A GREAT DAY UH?
i'm sorry if i change overnight anyway.